was i supposed to be alone?
maybe it doesn't matter anymore
this is the path i've chosen
the path im on
supposed to be moving forward
should be much much farther along
but im crushed by the weight of everything
and im crushed by the weight of nothing
and i feel already totally poured out
there is more and more and more...
this thick, oozing, gushing out
and on and on and on...

will i always feel so empty...
so heavy, so lonely...

am i just here to show you
that there can be more?
maybe thats all there is for me...
maybe that will be okay...
maybe im selfish for wanting more
that must be it
you're supposed to live
for other people
without overburdening them
you're supposed to make them
feel important
without really needing them

how close is too close?
how far is too far?